To Be Judged

Why does fate deem it necessary for some to be the eccentric oddity and others to be the shining light of perfection? I don't want to be popular and famous to where I have to become someone I'm not to fit an 'image', I just want to be loved. To have friends, family and love in my life regardless of looks, finances and success. To be free to dress, speak and be 100% my unique self without being treated as if I'm doing it the wrong way. Just because we do things differently, doesn't mean we do things wrong. We are all judged so harshly by those closest to us and it becomes a painful burden to look in the mirror and question what's wrong, what's not enough and why the solitude. This has bothered me for years and it just gets worse as I get older. I miss the days of my childhood where I was blissfully numb to the reality of the voices with words of negativity to plague my soul with emptiness. The peace I find in nature shows me that change is inevitable. Though it may take years, nothing lasts forever...

JournalAmber Flowers